Discovered that I still have fears of getting upside down, especially in a class or workshop setting. My body is strong and capable but, my ego seeks perfection and hates embarrassment and failure. I thought I was done with worrying about what others think but, then those P words show up…Perfection and Pride…when I want to get upside down. So, I’ll keep handstanding, and I keep frog-kicking my damn ego out of the way until I get upside down into freedom. But, ego, I won’t totally kick you to the curb…with love and compassion, I just ask you to step aside so I can get on with transforming and transmorphing into the ME I am discovering wants to be messy and free. Thank you Patrick and Carling for the awesome inversion workshop!
And, sharing this photo…wow, I almost didn’t do it. Instead of noticing me sandwiched between two amazing yoga teachers I saw…my middle. And, on top of that, the featured image in the header photo zeroes in, right on my beautiful, soft 50 year-old belly. Oh, yay! (rolling eyes) So, I posted it anyway, in all my glory. I’m not fat but, I’m not skinny. I don’t have the flat tummy of my youth but, with every day I’m learning what it means to stand in my own power…my peaceful power. So, it’s all good. Here, I am, me being me, rockin’ my softness, my powerful thunder thighs, my 5 foot and a nickel petiteness, all baby-got-back-booty, and my winning smile. I’m discovering that I’ve been embarrassed to love myself, like it’s arrogant or boastful. Without comparing myself to others, without better or worse, prettier or uglier, fatter or skinnier…I commit to loving myself just because this goddess-given body is a gift to celebrate and nurture. I love this photo…of me. 🙂
Love, light, and gratitude… Yogamama Meels